Dark & Snarky

After seeing the movie 'The Social Network' I was initially inspired. I thought it was a great story, and although the actual events will only be known to those truly involved, one of the oldest stories was clearly told: you have to sacrifice something great to achieve something great.

When I'm feeling a lack of creativity and motivation, I find there is little else that gets my brain cranking out great ideas other than watching a dramatic story of conviction and intellect. After watching 'The Social Network' my brain was humming and positively consumed by trying to connect all the different possible pathways with the question: "can we have it all? Always a loaded question because sacrifice is best friends with ambition. And these questions inevitably bring me down a dark road. It's only a matter of time until I gradually climb back to the middle ground of where I started, yet feeling slightly lighter for having figured out something new about myself.

This talk I went to last night couldn't have come at a better time. Really couldn't. Thank you Jonathan Harris. I've been struggling to find a new balance in my life--which I will find in my mid-thirties, or so the "Life Sentence", an actual sentence compiled of feelings (so effing smart), tells me. This balance is something we all look for, I know. We all start looking for it for different reasons, from different places and come to it in all different fashions. But to the same end we all need it. Mine, in a much abbreviated nutshell, is to find balance with my right and left brained self. This has involved a lot of back and forth with thinking I need to pick or settle for one or the other to be fulfilled. I discovered it's having to pick one that's left me unbalanced. Hilariously enough (insert snarkiness here) I think of it as a seesaw. I use my left brain to synthesize all the logical information as to why seesaws work, then I go and sit on one side and think if I push hard enough I can make it work. I need my right brain to carry as much weight as my left brain to move freely. My struggle has been putting too much weight on one side of “my” seesaw.

"We Feel Fine" is one of the projects Jonathan Harris spoke about during his talk. If you are reading this and live in Vermont, you are in luck: he is the Artist in Residence at UVM right now and has a show currently at The Fire House Gallery in Burlington. Human emotion and the Interwebs, it affects us all and his mission is fascinating.

I felt this drink was quite appropriate in regards to my feelings and emotions as of late. Although it is traditionally called A Dark and Stormy, I am not a traditional gal, so it is more of a Dark and Extra Stormy (extra ginger), and because when I am feeling dark, I don't get extra stormy, I get extra snarky. After having one of these when feeling this way I tend to balance out to a Warm and Smiley.